The Musings of a Confused Man

I feel strange tonight. To be honest, I'm having a hard time describing my mood and emotional state. I think that the best word for describing the underlying theme is melancholy. but it's a strange melancholy. I'm finding a certain comfort in it. It doesn't depress me, if that makes any sense.

There's also a strong sense of impermanence to it all. It's as if in my sadness, there's a deep knowledge that it will pass soon enough, departing to let my heart fill with light and joy. This knowledge lets me find comfort in my temporary darkness, wrapping it around me gently like a warm blanket as I wait "sunnier" times.

It's not like I'm totally devoid of joy, anyway. Evenin my morose state, I can see the myriad little bright spots. I can see where I have treated myself with more honor and respect than I have in the past. I know I have friends I can turn to when I need an ear, and have even dared to call on them to offer those very services. I am loved, and I know it. What is a little sadness in the face of that?