April 2006 Archives

This weekend, I ran to Blockbuster and rented a copy of "The Visitation," a movie that is "loosely based" on the novel by the same title, written by Frank Peretti.; I originally started reading Peretti's novels when I was in high school. A good adult friend from my little hometown church recommended them to me, and I was hooked. Even now that I don't agree with the author's theology, I can still enjoy many of his works.

Unfortunately, I was dismayed by the changes made when transforming this book into a movie. This was particularly dismaying as Peretti was listed as one of the producers, suggesting that he had (though limited I'm sure) some say in these changes. Primarily, a number of characters were changed, merged, or just plain deleted. A prime example of this was the circumstances surrounding the death Travis Jordan's wife. This had the effect of transforming Jordan from a man mourning the loss caused by a disease he and his church couldn't "pray away" into a man who was bitter do to an unsolved murder.

Normally, I can be fairly understanding when things are changed in order to make a book-based movie "work." Books and movies are completely different media, and what works in one doesn't always work in the other. But the changes to the characters and plot-lines in this case represent a change to the entire theme of the original book.

"The Visitation" was a rather unique book amongst Peretti's writing experiences. It was different in that it was about something Peretti doesn't often write about. Unlike books where he's focused on the spiritual or supernatural -- like "This Present Darkness" -- or some particular issue of religio-political significance -- like "Prophet" -- this book focuses on people, as well as people's experiences with "church stuff." The supernatural "miracles" of the man who would be the new Jesus take a secondary role to the people who are reacting to him, or to Travis's painful memories of his memories -- both pleasant and unpleasant -- of life in the church. It is these things that made me appreciate this book most out of all of his other novels. And I was saddened to see all of this missing from the movie.

The movie itself was pretty good for a movie. But I think that everyone did both the movie and an excellent novel a great disservice by associating it -- even "loosely" -- with Peretti's awesome book. And I'm disappointed that Peretti would not only allow it to happen, but appears to have been at least partly involved in such a travesty.

Earlier this morning, I realized that it was April 1. I then realized that it was April 1, 2006. That's exactly ten years after April 1, 1996. For those who might not be aware of it, April 1, 1996 was the day that I quit trying to "fix" my sexuality, and came out to both myself and my friend Merion. That means that as of about 8pm this evening, I have been "out" for ten years. So happy anniversary to me!

I'm not big on commemorating "life changing moments" every year. But for some reason, remembering my tenth coming out anniversary struck me as important today, so I thought I'd say a few things about it.

First of all, let me just reiterate that if you're about to come out to your best friend and you find yourself prefacing your announcement with the phrase, "Please bear in mind this isn't an April Fool's joke," you've probably chosen a bad day to come out. It's something that Merion and I have joked about every so often for the past ten years.

I remember that night with some amazing details. I remember meeting Merion in the small alcove where our Small Group Bible Study (the one I was helping to lead and that Merion used to attend) met on Wednesday night. My stomach was all in knots and I think I was visibly shaking. It took me several long moments of hesitation to get the words out. I had a certain feeling like this was it. Once I took this step, there was no going back. And it's hard to jump off the proverbial cliff like that. Ultimately, I'm glad I did and I've hardly looked back since, but my perspective was quite different back then.

Merion was momentarily stunned. I'm not sure whether she wasn't expecting it (if so, she may well be the only person who hadn't at least suspected something was up by then) or if she was just so surprised that I decided to tell her. She did tell me she was honored that I told her, which I sort of understand all of these years later. To me, it only made sense at the time. After all, she had come out to me the previous year.

I think that part of the reason thinking back to this event ten years ago is that it was my first "big change." Considering the number of changes I've been through in the last ten years -- including several changes in the past year -- thinking back to the event that "got the ball rolling," seems appropriate. I mean, on March 31, 1996, I was a "straight" (okay, that's not entirely true, but that's another complicated topic) evangelical Christian with highly conservative political leanings. The next day, I officially took the first step towards becoming the person I am today, a gay witch with a mostly left-leaning political outlook. Had you asked me back then if I ever thought I'd be where I am today, I think I would've laughed. Maybe even offended.

Isn't life strange?