The following is an excerpt from a special journaling project I've started:
It wasn't until Serenity and Zech came along that I received enough encouragement to truly develop my inner writer. I had written a little at the end of college -- mostly to help myself cope with my coming out struggles -- and those two eventually got me to share. They both loved it and encouraged me to push myself further. I became more confident and open to showing others my work.
Thinking back, I better understand why I chose to put my pen down for so long after they hurt and abandoned me. They had built up my writing so much, it felt like they took it all back when they turned.
Of course, I know that's not true now. My writing is something that comes from within me, and is therefore not something they could take from me -- nor can anyone else. They could only take away their support. But now, I know I don't need it (and never did). I only need to connect to the writer within. He's al I need. I'm all I need. I can be my own encouragement.
Coming to this realization tonight was liberating and empowering in a way that really surprised me. Suddenly, I found myself feeling a whole lot more inspired. In fact, I'm seriously considering starting a fiction project in the near future.
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