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A personal update

Hello, dear readers! I apologize for my lengthy absence (which isn’t quite over). I did not expect to disappear for two months. However, life has been hectic and stressful and I just decided I needed some time away.

For those who have not followed me on social media, I have been chasing answers for what’s going on with my heart since September. I’ve been through a nuclear stress test, an echocardiogram, and multiple EKGs. On the 30th of this month, I’m going to see an electrophysiologist, which is a cardiologist that specializes in the heart’s “wiring.” At this point, we’re hoping he can analyze the current information and shed some light on why my heart suddenly decides to speed up and/or break out into abnormal rhythms from time to time. The good news is that I’m not in any immediate danger. But I’d really like to know what’s going on and figure out what we need to do to ensure I continue to be in no immediate danger.

On top of that, I’m dealing with a bit of sadness. Yesterday was my mother’s birthday and today is the anniversary of her death. Yeah, she died a day (actually mere hours) after her birthday.1 As such, she’s been on my mind and I’m experiencing a lot of sadness over that right now.

As I implied above, I’m not quite ready to get back to regular posting, but hope to resume in February. At that time, i plan to resume my Monday and Friday schedule. The first Friday in February, I plan to resume my blog series regarding Spinning Wyrd by Ryan Smith. We’ll see what the first few Monday posts regard. I’d love to continue the polytheology series, but that depends on whether I can come up with something I want to talk about between now and then.

In between now and February, I might do a bonus post or two. We’ll just have to see.

Post history: I wrote the first draft of this post on 22 January 2025. I proofread, revised, and finalized it on 23 January 2025.

Footnotes

  1. One of the sad things about her death is that she had decided she wanted to stop palliative care and return to rehabilitation after many family members came to see her in the nursing home on her birthday. Alas, her heart quickly decided that wasn’t meant to be. ↩︎

Someone I care deeply about is grieving.

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Someone I care deeply about has lost someone he cares deeply about today.  Please keep him in your thoughts as he grieves.  If you’re the praying type, please pray for him.  I don’t usually tell people how they should pray, but if you would indulge me, I’d like to offer these suggestions:

Pray that he has the courage to grieve and grieve fully.

Pray that he feels safe enough to grieve.

Pray that if he needs to cry, he finds a time and place where he can allow himself to cry.

Pray that if he needs to shout, he finds a time and place where he can allow himself to shout.

Pray that if he needs to ask the hard questions, he finds a time, a place, and the sense that he can safely ask the hard questions.

Pray not that his grieving will be cut short or sped up, but that he may go through the process fully and properly.

And pray that in it all, he remembers that we grieve because we have first loved.  And let the memory of that love inject some sweetness in the often painful grieving process.

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